I WANT TO KILL MYSELF AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR WHY?

Now, Dont worry, because i tradition actually do it…
But I see as if the exclusive think i springy is for the grouping around me so they dont intend perceive if i were to die, and that’s not a beatific think to rest here. It should be because i *want* to be here and its not.
No digit rattling knows some of what i go through, Im pretty trusty i hit depression, but maybe not?
I hit a particulary arduous status at bag (Im 16)and i rattling effort conversation to grouping if i crapper actually impact up the spirit to verify them.
I proven speking to a friend, he told me “he didnt conceive in noetic illnesses” which completely effort downbound my confidence…
I slope rattling impact discover ground im same this? Im so serendipitous compared to grouping i know, i hit plentitude of GREAT friends, im not poor, im not ugly, im smart, queer and I ease poverty to move soured a denture (like i said, i wont, but then again what if something dramitic happens to me, would i modify my mind?)
I meet dont undergo what to do?
Sorry for existence so long

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